The realisation that I still don't know what I'm doing here,
Put in perspective I am nothing,
It feels like something has been wasted, and I am fading
Time is growing against me as I grow tired of being
Just another soul spent searching for something inside,
I hate my fucking guts, I hate desire, I hate lust,
I hate humanity, I hate instinctively, I hate this fucking world for fucking hating me
The chasm in my chest
Screams of resounding emptiness
I've never tasted this bitterness
I never felt this solitude, worthlessness
So what great vision is this to sail amongst the vast indifference?
Accept a trail to hollow senses, where only tragedy breaks the numbness
So what great epiphany, will spell out beneath my feet?
Chain my wrists, and admit defeat, imprisoned by 'the clarity'
So is this destiny, a doubtful life, feeling empty?
Worst of all to make me guilty, blindest of the blind, telling me to see
I might hate this world, I might hate myself
But I wont be a wasted soul, another ghost like everyone else
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
AS THEY SAY
"Everything has an end. Even young ladies in love cannot read their letters for ever."
(1841 Dickens Barnaby Rudge xx.)
As all good things come to an end one must accept the anguish that follows, it's a part of growing up. Tragedy, trauma, pain, they all teach us patience, passion and gratitude. For some a perfect world, a utopia would be ideal but when I think about it a brave new world is not what we need but total chaos. To teach us that everything we have we take for granted, we use and don't think about where and who it came from.
This society is too materialistic, I can see why people trade their reality for a game.
They're actually fighting for something.
(1841 Dickens Barnaby Rudge xx.)
As all good things come to an end one must accept the anguish that follows, it's a part of growing up. Tragedy, trauma, pain, they all teach us patience, passion and gratitude. For some a perfect world, a utopia would be ideal but when I think about it a brave new world is not what we need but total chaos. To teach us that everything we have we take for granted, we use and don't think about where and who it came from.
This society is too materialistic, I can see why people trade their reality for a game.
They're actually fighting for something.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
TUESDAY
Today is much like apex of a roller-coaster when it reaches the very top of the highest peak before it begins its thunderous roar down the tracks.
This is my last night in Brisbane for a few good weeks as tomorrow I jet-set to Hobart for the All-schools National Athletics competition until I return on the 9th of December. My mate and I have a flat to ourselves for the week that overlooks the Derwent River and we have a guitar and other various instruments to keep us occupied whilst we're down there.
As soon as I return I will be off to Caloundra for two weeks until the 20th of Decemeber, two weeks in heaven soaking up the sun, beach and good times. Hopefully some of the mates are free and able to come up for the day or two, who wouldn't wanna hit up the beach at Christmas time? It's un-Australian!
Upon returning to Brisbane will be my interview with the Apple store at Chermside for my position as a Specialist there, so I'm super excited about everything this month as things start to snowball.
Above everything else I've found a girl I really like and one I find myself wanting to know more about each and every moment spent together. She ticks all of the boxes of things I look for in a person and is just such a pleasure to be around, it feels as though we've been friends for ages. It's just easy to talk with each other and laughter is always involved.
Anyway that's enough about me, tell me about yourself dear reader!
This is my last night in Brisbane for a few good weeks as tomorrow I jet-set to Hobart for the All-schools National Athletics competition until I return on the 9th of December. My mate and I have a flat to ourselves for the week that overlooks the Derwent River and we have a guitar and other various instruments to keep us occupied whilst we're down there.
As soon as I return I will be off to Caloundra for two weeks until the 20th of Decemeber, two weeks in heaven soaking up the sun, beach and good times. Hopefully some of the mates are free and able to come up for the day or two, who wouldn't wanna hit up the beach at Christmas time? It's un-Australian!
Upon returning to Brisbane will be my interview with the Apple store at Chermside for my position as a Specialist there, so I'm super excited about everything this month as things start to snowball.
Above everything else I've found a girl I really like and one I find myself wanting to know more about each and every moment spent together. She ticks all of the boxes of things I look for in a person and is just such a pleasure to be around, it feels as though we've been friends for ages. It's just easy to talk with each other and laughter is always involved.
Anyway that's enough about me, tell me about yourself dear reader!
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