FALL DOWN, NEVER GET BACK UP AGAIN

"Out where the stones lay like bones by the ocean
Out where the waves crash contempt on the land
Someone was trembling for fear of the tempest
Somebody silently reached for their hand
Said, understand that if you're cold I'll keep you warm
And besides, there's so much beauty in a storm
So come down with me to the shore
And what's more, I adore you
So tell me, what is there to fear
You think some seraph up above is trying to rob us of our love
Because the sky's not clear
My dear, you know there's not
Now listen to the rain upon the rooftop
But the wind picked up

Out where the stones stand up like thrones beside the ocean
Out where the waves make a grave of the sea
The lovers struggled in the middle of the tempest
And water angrily crawled up onto the beach
Said, hold my hand and stay with me
We'll be released
But the tide clung like an anchor to her feet
And though he tried to make the water line recede
It pulled her out into the sea
He could not break apart the waves to bring her safely back in
He watched her hand break through the surface once
Then disappear again
Forever wait inside the sea for my, my dear
I hear you
You speak in every curling wave
And sing in every violent breeze
Someday not far away from here
My dear, I swear I'll see you
And we will hear the seraphs cry
For they will still envy you and I
How they envied you and I"

La Dispute, Somewhere At The Bottom Of The River Between Vega And Altair (2008)

BLACK SHEEP

'I've watched so many run that it makes me feel numb when
I loose a good friend to another pointless trend.
I'm sick of superficial minds clogging the ears of our blind,
blind because they cannot see their own dismal routines.
No matter what is your label, we've got to turn all the tables before its too late.
and before we have the chance to state all the shit that is wrong with this society
in which we belong, where the privileged don't speak.
they're too busy fighting for their green.
This lack of hope has been jammed down my throat to the point
where I only care about impending air.
As I chocked up, all the words came out
and I finally heard all the shit you had been talking about.
You said I wouldn't last too long. well you're wrong.
I am the black sheep of this country because I won't buy what they sell me.
My friend, that's what this X means.
It's the symbol of all my beliefs.
It's the ink thats been used by this world to cross out my words
so they wouldn't hold and to crush my defiant thoughts.
but its only put a fire in my heart.
I can pick myself up when I'm down with this fire in my heart.'

The Effort, Iconoclasm (2008)

Routine

The sun floods through the blinds,
one singular thought on everyone's minds.
Different routines but the same cause,
sometimes it gets so hectic you just want to hit pause.
In go the headphones to block the world's sound,
the calm before the storm is what I've found.

DOUBLE STANDARDS

I ask you what's wrong but you never tell me, hangin' up with a grunt.
I get frustrated and leave for things to cool and I'm the worst person ever.
Sorry I didn't call at the right time, I would like to have talked to you.
Share your thoughts with me maybe? Maybe it might help you feel better?

STANDING HARD

I can honestly say that I've learnt more than a thing or two from the one I love. I've learnt something about relationships but more importantly myself. It's so easy to start a fight or misinterpret the real intention behind a statement; it just goes to show how much we rely on body language to decode their thoughts.

A man I look up to once said that, "love isn't a walk in the park, it's fucking hard but you gotta push through that". He taught me that it isn't always going to be a honeymoon, and you have to put effort into love otherwise it fails, withers and dies. Love isn't a matter of life and death but it can certainly have that effect on some people; however it can help people to strive to be the best they can be. I have that love from someone I hold dearly, and I cannot thank her enough.

ALCOHOL

Alcohol is the worst drug upon this planet. It is one of the main causes of death, violence and anti-social behaviour. It is the leading catalyst of preventable death in every developed country and kills more people than smoking and recreational drugs put together. Alcohol is a psychoactive drug, a depressant of the central nervous system; and to see what I've seen it cause only makes believe more that it is a plague.

Yeah a lot people say "I don't drink to excess" but for every person claims that there are 10 more that do. We need to wake the fuck up and learn to socialise instead of alcohol doing the talking for us. Just because everyone else drinks, does it mean you have to? If everyone jumped off a bridge would you jump too?

These are some pictures of car related deaths involving alcohol and drugs, however I warn you some of these are disturbing, please only look if you have a strong stomach.

http://www.consumershero.com/archives/1030
http://www.consumershero.com/archives/261
http://www.bestgore.com/road-accidents/porsche-girl-nikki-catsouras-carcrash-photos/

MYSPACE

The concept of "PC4PC" is the most ridiculous and most self-indulgent agreement in all of Myspace. Yes, it is Myspace but what it represents is something far more. If people wanted to comment your pictures and tell you how stunning you are, or how cool your clothes are, they would. If they didn't know you uploaded a new picture they obviously don't want your updates then.

RELATIONSHIPS

Having a relationship these past six months has brought about a lot of realisations for me. Not just emotions I've never felt, but experiences I'll never forget. Yeah you can have a relationship with someone but there is different levels of emotional connection as well as physical.

I like to catagorise them, so these are the types I believe exist:

• the "girlfriend-boyfriend title" sort where you're just in it because you like to tell people you have a partner but never really spend time together
• the "high school hook up" sort where you are just going out for the physical rewards and talk a little bit.
• the "guardian angel" sort where you think that your partner is an angel in your eyes and you will love them to death and call them super cute names and write each other peoms.
• and finally there is the "best friends" sort, where you and your partner are at that stage where you are completely comfortable with each other, you can talk about anything and not hold back, you can just hang and not have to say a word and felt like you've spent your time together perfectly, where you have way too many personal jokes to keep track of, and where you are both what I call in love. The realisation that you are just too compatible and you could spend everyday together and never feel sick of that person.

These are just some of the stereotypical ones I've come to see and experience. You might fit in to all of them, maybe even none but whatever you feel that love is, follow it.

FIRST TIMES

There's a first time for everything in this world, both physical and emotional.
Some bad, some good, some fantastic, some you just never want to experience again. The twelfth of June had to be one of the most memorable moments of my life, however I'm afraid I can't tell you the details. Maybe you can guess what it is? Maybe it doesn't really matter. Thanks to her I see things differently, I see things with fresh eyes; helped me to overcome a lot of things. If I could marry her now, I would.

Parents, teachers or friends are always describing certain experiences and sometimes exaggerate them. But one thing is for sure, and that's you can never truly know unless you do it yourself. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if they never occurred, would I be a different person because of it?

I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for all of the experiences, people and places I've come into contact with. And so for that very reason I am so very content with who I am today. I am happy because I have a roof over my head, a supportive family, a soul mate and a set of friends I would go to kingdom come for.

FINALLY WINTER